Goals....

Previously I blogged about my goal of feeling healthier, and better about myself. Like most girls I have issues with my weight, and my self-esteem is not what it once was. I don't' want to sound conceited, because Im not, but I know Im not an ugly girl....but right now I feel like a fat girl, and that is really killing me. I have never been "skinny" nor do I want to be...but I would like to be closer to my ideal weight. (I am about 45 more then I should be). I know I can't just bitch about it, I need to be proactive. I need to be acountable and have some motivation to get my ass in shape :) lol. So here is the plan....

Motivation: The ladies in the nursing program with me are starting a weight loss challenge. $5 each, person who loses the biggest percentage wins the pot!!!! (25 or so already entered)

Identify: I have to Identify the reasons I have gained weight before I can reverse it
1) sendentary life style (school/studying all the time)
2) unhealthy snacking while studying
3)depression eating
4) poor meal choices during the day
5) poor choices while away from home.....

How: How do I change all of this?????? So I know I have to work out at least 4-5 times per week to see a real difference. I must burn more calories then I put in. But I have to eat enough to stay out of starvation mode.

I am working on the depression....snacking because I am sad has stopped since the wellbutrin starting working, so now I have to focus on making healthy snack choices while studying....
Good study snacks: fruits, veggies, whole wheat crackers, rice cakes, granola bars, yogurt, etc.
Food on the go? I have a guide that tells me what reasturants have good choices, and what foods to avoid....I put it my purse today, now I have to actually look at it and make better choices!!!!
Food at home: time is always an issue and I don't have much time to cook so I usually make mac and cheese or some pre-prepared nastiness thats fills the void....BUT I know that salad is easy and with the right stuff on it, very filling and healthy!!!! Progressive makes really yummy low cal/low Na soups, turkey sandwich with avo is my all time favorite and super easy to make, and if all else fails I love eating cereal for dinner :)
Beaverages.....gots to stop with the dark beers and caramel macchiatos, switch to low fat latte with a splenda (already made this switch, I like it)....and Its time to stop drinking so much beer. When I go out I can choose a low cal adult beverage....vodka is carb free...I will do some research :)

The plan???? change my eating habits and put the gym in my planner. If I write it down and always have gym clothes with me I will actually go. I know I will, becasue I used to work out three times a week without fail!!!!!! I can do this, I know I can!!!!

Tomorrow I have clinical from 2-10. It will take about an hour to get there from my gym.....hit the gym before 11 and I know I will have time to get cleaned up and be ontime to the foster home. (where I am working with some amazing medically fragile children check out my myspace blog www.myspace.com/amanda_kayeleen.) tuesday I am there 12-8 So I will go straight to the gym from there and watch bones while I am on the eliptical. Wednesday study group from 1030-till we get done so if we finish by 8 I will be able to make it to the gym! Thursday is a no go because we have the first mid-term.) Friday I will go to the gym at 4 when school is all finished up!

The gym back is packed and ready to go in the am!!!!! OK, here's to being motivated and making a positive change in my life :)

Now I have to go study for my GIANT test on thursday....i am so totally freaking out.
luckily I have stopped crying!!!!

much love,
Amanda